Back again

The thing about blogging is that you tend to need something to write about.

And to remember that you have a blog.

That’s always helpful.

Anyways.

Let’s see…what’s happened to me since I last posted?

I lost my best friends over a crush. I went through a period of just being home and not having friends. I found that my best friends were the ones I never saw due to distance and busy-ness, but talked to constantly via texting, phone, and facebook. I was in another play. I didn’t go to prom. I brought a girl to a Morp (Prom backwards) a week later though. She’s one of my new friends. I started going to a new church, which I actually really like. I reconnected with one of my ex-friends, and she started going to church with me. She then helped me reconnect with my group of guy friends.

I’ve been obsessing over lots of different things. Especially music-related. Glee, lots of different bands, musicals, Neil Patrick Harris…

I’ve been reading a lot too. Beastly was an amazing book and I can’t wait for the movie (which stars NPH himself <3)

It’s finals week. I have to write a final for all of my classes, finish my art-history sketchbook, and find a section out of one of the books we read in Lit to read aloud dramatically. (I chose Cyrano de Bergerac, love love it. Except for the ending.)

I’m going to try and take two online electives. I have to take a bunch next semester. What I really want to do is take dance and singing lessons, so that I can be in a musical. I really really want to be in a musical. So. SO. Much.

Can’t wait for this week to be over so summer can really begin. Who knows what’ll happen.

Well, now that I have all this off my chest I should be able to begin specifying what’s been going on in my life as I begin to blog again. But as I’ve mentioned it’s finals week, so I’d better get started on that.

TTFN-

Lauren

Hi again.

Well, I think we pulled off another good Thanksgiving. The house was clean, the food was great, and everyone got along. (mostly) Last night I saw Julie and Julia again, this time at the $3 theater by my house with my mom. It made me think of two things: of all the awesome food I'd be helping to make for Thanksgiving, and of how much I suck at blogging. Oh well.

Anyways,

Tonight I saw Where The Wild Things Are with my brothers at the same theater. Bizarre movie. Kinda cute. Kinda sad. Mostly strange. I liked the whole imaginative thing, and how cute the little boy was and his relationship with the monsters, but all in all you couldn't tell if they liked him and wanted him to help them(they made him king fyi), or if they were just waiting for him to screw up so they could eat him....

yeah.

I've realized that there are some things you don't need to share with people. Some things you don't want to blog. For example, if you are feeling particularly sappy on a holiday, telling your friends of the opposite gender how much you appreciate them and etc isn't always the best idea. They tend to not know what to do with it. The best thing to do is generally to hold it in, (Unless you're a guy and this is your gal friends) and instead be all, Happy _____ dudes!

Much better idea.

Also, my mom (when she was mad at me today) told me that "it didn't really matter what I posted on the internet, people have their own posts and friends and don't care about that sort of thing. They care about friendly and confident people." I'm not entirely sure what I did that brought on this conversation, but she does have a point. At the moment I'm pretty friendless really. Sure, I have a bunch of people I know who I call my friends, and I see them every so often and talk to them online and etc., but real-true friends that really-truly care about me, and want to talk to me about my life and hang out and do real-true friend stuff? Yeah, I'm pretty short on those right now. That seems to be my undoing. Now, I'm not saying that none of my friends care about me or anything, they do. I do have a few friends that I talk to regularly online and who check in on me and cheer me up. But right now, I need to find more than that. I'm also not saying that I give up those friends, heck no. I want to keep them and spend more time with them too. But I need more friends who will spend time with me, and actually want to.

To be a friend, one has to be friend-ly. Funny that. I'm friendly enough. I think. But I'm also quiet. And unconfident. As Emma Pillsbury from Glee once said, "There is nothing sexier then confidence."

That's just my luck.

My lack of confidence in myself has led to ruining chances of friendships and relationships with people. So many times. So. Many. Times.

That has got to stop. Now.

Alright, so here's my challenge. I need confidence to be...sexy? Ha. Like that's ever going to happen. No, I need confidence to be friendly and make friends. So it seems I have my challenge. More of a quest really. A quest to find confidence in order to gain friends! Huzzah!

Wish me luck!

More later. I promise.

-Lauren