Hi again.

Well, I think we pulled off another good Thanksgiving. The house was clean, the food was great, and everyone got along. (mostly) Last night I saw Julie and Julia again, this time at the $3 theater by my house with my mom. It made me think of two things: of all the awesome food I'd be helping to make for Thanksgiving, and of how much I suck at blogging. Oh well.

Anyways,

Tonight I saw Where The Wild Things Are with my brothers at the same theater. Bizarre movie. Kinda cute. Kinda sad. Mostly strange. I liked the whole imaginative thing, and how cute the little boy was and his relationship with the monsters, but all in all you couldn't tell if they liked him and wanted him to help them(they made him king fyi), or if they were just waiting for him to screw up so they could eat him....

yeah.

I've realized that there are some things you don't need to share with people. Some things you don't want to blog. For example, if you are feeling particularly sappy on a holiday, telling your friends of the opposite gender how much you appreciate them and etc isn't always the best idea. They tend to not know what to do with it. The best thing to do is generally to hold it in, (Unless you're a guy and this is your gal friends) and instead be all, Happy _____ dudes!

Much better idea.

Also, my mom (when she was mad at me today) told me that "it didn't really matter what I posted on the internet, people have their own posts and friends and don't care about that sort of thing. They care about friendly and confident people." I'm not entirely sure what I did that brought on this conversation, but she does have a point. At the moment I'm pretty friendless really. Sure, I have a bunch of people I know who I call my friends, and I see them every so often and talk to them online and etc., but real-true friends that really-truly care about me, and want to talk to me about my life and hang out and do real-true friend stuff? Yeah, I'm pretty short on those right now. That seems to be my undoing. Now, I'm not saying that none of my friends care about me or anything, they do. I do have a few friends that I talk to regularly online and who check in on me and cheer me up. But right now, I need to find more than that. I'm also not saying that I give up those friends, heck no. I want to keep them and spend more time with them too. But I need more friends who will spend time with me, and actually want to.

To be a friend, one has to be friend-ly. Funny that. I'm friendly enough. I think. But I'm also quiet. And unconfident. As Emma Pillsbury from Glee once said, "There is nothing sexier then confidence."

That's just my luck.

My lack of confidence in myself has led to ruining chances of friendships and relationships with people. So many times. So. Many. Times.

That has got to stop. Now.

Alright, so here's my challenge. I need confidence to be...sexy? Ha. Like that's ever going to happen. No, I need confidence to be friendly and make friends. So it seems I have my challenge. More of a quest really. A quest to find confidence in order to gain friends! Huzzah!

Wish me luck!

More later. I promise.

-Lauren

And another month goes by...

Wow. It's almost been a month since my last post... yeah I'm not so good at these resolutions.

It's kinda funny though. Writing a blog is like a message in a bottle kind of thing. You kinda just throw something out there and wonder if anyone's going to read it. (not that this is a cry for help...)

I have been busy with redoing Algebra 1 (oh yeah, happyfuntimes!) I have to have it finished by Oct. 30th, then I "get" to finish Geometry before going on to Algebra 2... (yippie??) This charter school apparently thinks I enjoy math, allot. Actually, what happened was when I was transferring to a charter school from basic homeschool, I couldn't find enough math from each kind to satisfy them... therefore I have to redo a bunch to satisfy their appetites for mathly knowledge. (Mathly should totally be a word.)

Literature is pretty cool. Read a play called Tartuffe, which was pretty funny (and the whole thing rhymed!) and now we're reading The Three Musketeers. It's pretty great so far, but it's a heck of a long book. Good thing we don't have to do it all in one week, but that wouldn't be impossible for me... (Not trying to brag, but I do devour books pretty quickly..) Oh and I have to write a play for theater credit. Like I said, Literature, and books are allot more of my thing. Writing a play is hecka hard. So I decided to go with something on the easy side. It's called Cinderface, basically a modern Cinderella story with a guy instead of a girl. I know, I know. Anyways, speaking of theater...

Theater's going well, didn't get a lead (oh shock-surprise) but my character should be pretty interesting. Actually, tonight we're having character interviews... and because my character was written into the script (that's never a good sign btw) I get to make up virtually anything I want about my character (which is pretty awesome actually) because it's not like I'm on stage that often or say that much anyway. I could be married to the king of Siberia, a double agent from the Soviet, or pretty much anything I want. It's not like the audience will ever know anyways. (Mwahahaha)

This whole end-of-October deadline has kept me pretty confined to my house (being a homeschooler) which sucks. I haven't seen my friends (outside of theater and history/lit class) in over 2 weeks. (Not like they invited me to hang out anyway... but even if they did I probably would've had to turn them down. Which prospect's sadder? you tell me.)

One of my close friends, Kehau, is having a Broadway-costume themed birthday party the 30th, which should be allot of fun. Speaking of which, Halloween's coming up... I'm thinking of being Little Red Riding Hood. I have a black skirt and shirt/vest thing which is pretty cool, but would be mostly covered by my awesome red hooded cape I have. Sadly, I have no idea where I'd wear this costume as I have no plans (so far) for Halloween. I'll let ya'll know as things develop.

Well gotta get back to the books (oh joy!)

Peace, out.

Theater, brothers and HEROES!

Hey y'all!

Last night was the opening night/auditions for the theater company I'm in (Alethia Christian Theater) and I admit I wasn't that excited until it was time to go, and even until after I arrived. All I gotta say is we've got some great new directors. Crazy, insane ones. That's good. Very good. Well, we're going to be split up into two casts (noooo!) so we'll see who gets the saner female director (Becky) or the crazy male one (Ryan) either way we get Lauren (another Lauren!) for the assistant director. Speaking of other Laurens, another Lauren auditioned too. So now there's three of us.... not cool man, not cool. "Oh yeah, let's name her Lauren Elizabeth, that'll be original!" Maybe in Scotland mom and dad, maybe in Scotland. (Twas born there fyi)

Annnywayyyy... we learned some crazy-fun games with the newbies, which are fun to do, but look retarded as heck to any on-lookers (good thing we don't allow people to watch rehearsals)

We also got to take turns reading monologues with the other actors on stage for them to see who has good chemistry together and etc, and I admit, I was pumped.

Next Monday is the official auditions, where we have to memorize one of the silly monologues they put on the website and perform it in front of the directors. After that we just have to wait for the cast list to see who gets what, and who's in what cast... I wonder if I'll get a good part this time. Oh and my brothers auditioned. I wonder if we'll be in the same cast...

Speaking of brothers, it's not easy being the oldest sometimes. Especially when you're homeschooled and live with them pretty much 24/7.... And your parents go to work and you're alone with them during the day. They can be quite the pain sometimes, and they argue ALL the time now. Now that Daniel (the youngest) has begun to reach teenagehood he suddenly finds injustice in everything Jonathan does, and Jonathan being an over-teasing kinda guy well, it just doesn't work out that well.... maybe it's good for them, and that when they go out into the world they will be able to deal with this kind of thing better... but it sure isn't helpful to me, or my ears.

Oh and omg, Heroes is back!!! I didn't get to see it last night obviously, but I saw it today. Looks good!

Gotta love Sylar! ;P And Hiro and Ando :D The whole carnie thing was cool too, but I don't wanta give anything away...

That's all for now, oh! except that the whole family has an optometry appointment tomorrow, so I'm getting new glasses (Finally! I broke my old ones..) and who knows, my bros might too :P

Ttfn! (Ta ta for now!)

Wow.... I fail

It's been over a month since I last updated this.... see why I never did this kinda thing before? Not like I've done tons of things in the past 30-something days... I just... okay forget the excuses.

Lets see..

Ah yes, the last post was about my party. It went great! The masquerade theme was pretty fun, I had plenty of extra masks for those who didn't bring their own. People kinda danced, at least the girls did. lol. My friends Kirsten and Jon dj'd for me, which was nice of them, lol. All in all it was fun, everyone liked playing Rockband 2...

Since then I've started school, and continued my driving school, was supposed to get my permit today but that didn't quite work out... on Monday hopefully.

I did however get Family Force 5's Keep The Party Alive cd at Target which I'm pretty psyched about, not gonna lie.

In other news, the next play called You Are as You think you are or whatever is coming up soon... auditions...woo...

Oh and I did get to hang out with my friend from Turkey (Derin) btw. Everyone's been busy though, the last few weeks of summer and starting school and all... so I haven't been able to see my friends as much as I've liked. Oh well... hopefully the weekends will still be fun.

Annnd yeah. That' s pretty much all I have to say now, just figured I should get back into the habit of blogging again...bye!

Here it goes..

Well, I finally got my party pretty much figured out, and it looks like I have allot of help from my friends so that's cool. More on that later.

Tonight was driver's training again, and because of that I missed my friend's return from Turkey (see earlier post) Oh well, we'll see eachother eventually.

I'm kinda ticked about stuff right now, which isn't exactly a vacationing mood, I mean considering that we're going to San Diego tomorrow. Agh...oh well.. we have to get up like at 5 or something ridiculous like that because my parents had the idea for us to take a bus tour of San Diego sometime in the morning, so we have to be there in time.. Blech.

Oh well, I'll write more perhaps on Saturday when we come back to home base before going out again until Monday. *sigh*

-Lauren

Party Time!

Well, although my 18th birthday was more than a month ago, my parents couldn't seem to fit a party in until 2 weeks(ish) from now. I sent out invites to my friends a week or so ago, but now I am having trouble deciding what the general theme/(thing everyone does) should be. The people coming range from 14 years of age-middle age adults. (although most of the guests are 16-20)

I like the idea of having stringing lights/stars and streamers, but that's about all I can figure out at the moment..

Dancing would be amazingly fun, but I'm not sure if I could get that to work out, I mean the backyard is big enough I suppose, but as to having the right music or dj (is it too late to get one of those anyway? I have no idea..) is just, bleh.. besides, I'm unsure as to whether or not my friends would dance or not.. :/ It's something I enjoy, but if none of my guests (AKA: Friends) are dancing then..what fun is that? Also I can't come up with any ideas for games, or if we should or shouldn't watch a movie, and what food we should have or whatever... I'm helpless!

I usually enjoy planning this kind of thing, but I'm kind of freaking out over the fact that I'm mixing different groups of friends, and over the whole my-house-isn't-very-big issue. *sigh*

If anyone out there is reading this... do YOU have an idea? ( I did just message some people for ideas, but believe me, I can use all the help I can get. )

More packing-Lauren out!

Up, and SanDiego

Last night I went with 2 of my friends to see Disney's Up at a nearby $3 theater. It was fun, I like that movie. Afterwards we went to Jack-In-The-Box and got food (None of us got snacks during the movie, and everyone's popcorn began to smell really good...) All in all it was a good night.

This morning my dad told me that he and my mom finally decided where we're going for our mini-vacation on Thursday. San Diego it is. San Fran. was too far for this time, and we decided against camping, so my mom thought San Diego would be fun, and seeing as how we never go it should be. Hopefully we can go to the Zoo and maybe Sea World. :)

Well that's all for now-gotta pack... ta-ta!

Turkish Friends, and Vacations

Well, I got a message from my good friend Derin from Turkey today, (he's half Turkish, and lives here in SoCal most of the year but he and his parents go to Istanbul every summer) he's coming home on Wednesday! I'm excited to see him again, and his message was very entertaining and mentioned us and the rest of the gang hanging out the night of his return... sadly I have driving school that night, and I leave for my family's mini vacation of our own Thursday. :/ Sad day. We still don't know how long we'll be gone, could be anywhere from until Saturday to Monday. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy spending time with my family, and the idea of a mini vacation (to who knows where) sounds fun... but I live with my family 24/7, and I haven't seen Derin since June. :/

Oh well, I explained the whole situation to him and he said not to worry and that we'd see eachother eventually, which is true... but yeah, still bummed about not seeing him with the rest of the gang at either In-N-Out or Chipoltle (Two of his fav restaurants, neither that are available in Turkey) cause I know it'll be a fun time. I know what you're thinking, patience is a virtue, spend time with your family, don't feel sorry for yourself, and yadayadayada. :P I know, I know, I'll enjoy my trip as it is, and see Derin when I get back, happy? Besides, once he's back in the states we can text again ;)

-Lauren out-

Dinosaurs, Church, and Thirteen year olds.

Well today I got to teach a class in Sunday School at my church on Dinosaurs, and the sixth day of creation, oh and was asked out.

No I don't mean by one of the kids in Sunday School, but that's pretty close...

After church one of the guys at my church sat down next to me after the service and asked me to be his girlfriend. Simple as that, no flirting, or games, or anything stupid like that. I was surprised, and flattered, but there was one little problem... he's thirteen years old. I tried explaining the fact that I'm five years older then him and that I didn't see how we could work out.. and he countered that with the fact that he's taller then me.... not cool man, not cool.

Needless to say, I delicately turned him down and when he finally gave up he walked away without another word.. (Not looking that sad or discouraged actually.. good on him) Seeing as how that's the only "offer" I've had...ever... I almost wonder if I should reconsider...kidding.

...Or am I?

Don't give up on love?

Oh look, I have a place to write down my feelings...thats...nice...

Talked, listened to conversations about, and thought about love allot lately. Sometimes I wonder about it, about if it's even worth thinking about yet? I mean, I don't want to ruin any friendships of mine trying to find it, and well that hasn't worked out so far anyways, so what's the point? (I'm not usually this "emo" just kinda depressed a bit now) so yeah, I may even change my mind tomorrow (cause thats the way I work...) but for now I'm done with it. Doesn't mean I'm giving up on love itself (thats for you Nolan ;P) but I mean that I'm done looking for it.. it's about time it started looking for me. ;P Well that's all for now, I'd better go to bed, get to teach sunday school tomorrow, yipee! (hear the sarcasm?) Goodnight!

I'm starting a blog! (Oxymoron? Yes..)

Well, here we are. I can't seem to keep a darn diary, but after seeing "Julie and Julia" I decided to try and challenge myself to instead blog about life, for a year. Is it nearly as exciting as following Julia Child's cookbook for a year? eh, maybe not. But it's my life, and if you want to follow it, then by all means, that what this thing is for, right? So here goes nothing!